This picture just screams "Wheeee, I'm free!" I have recently felt no such freedom. Rather I was in bondage to my fickle emotions. It's like I just let them drag me down into a sad, irritated, angry, frustrated pit. Can't say I'm fully set free, but I did finally realize that while I can't really control my initial feelings and hurt, I can control whether or not I dwell on those things and allow them to bring me down.
I was allowing that and, boy, was I sinking low. Really very miserable, yet I felt like I couldn't break free from it as it was sucking me down further.
That's why I like those verses I quoted in last night's post. Finally I realized that I have to trust God to lead me along whatever path and purpose in life that He has for me. On Sunday at church I saw the verse again about he who follows Jesus will never walk in darkness. Yet I felt in many ways I was staggering through the dark and I felt at odds spiritually with what I knew to be true. So I've been wondering, "How do I abide in Jesus? How do I follow Him?" He says to follow Him and He will make us fishers of men. And without Him we can do nothing. So we should always abide in Him (John 15.) But how do I do this exactly? Read the Bible more? Pray more? What?
I had the radio on yesterday morning as I was doing things in the house. The words of this song caught my attention especially the first verse. It just seemed to express my heart's cry (or what I want it to be) quite well.
Can You take me by the hand
Can You use me as I am
Break me into who You want me to be
When the time is finally right
Will You open up my eyes
Show me everything You want me to see
This life is not my own
To God alone be the glory
To God alone be the praise
Everything I say and do
Let it be all for You
The glory is Yours alone
To God Alone by Aaron Shust
Reminds me of Psalm 19:14. What a prayer!
"Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer."