In the May 2011 issue, this article from Sharon Hersh was the one I dog-eared. I decided to look for it online and found it! I'll only share this excerpt, but you can read the whole thing here if you'd like.
Take a moment to think about what your relationships would look like—especially the hard ones—if they were images hanging on the wall. Even if some evoke feelings of sadness, shame, anger, or disappointment, isn’t there something else within them as well? In and out, around, and through all of our foolish scheming, desire tugs at our hearts. We mistakenly believe this yearning is calling us to something merely external. It seems as though what we seek exists just around the corner, but when we get there, it’s gone.
Our longing for connection is so strong that even after turning the corner a thousand times, we’re compelled to hope with each new opportunity, even if in a small way, This is going to be the “one”—the experience that works, that will fulfill me.
Yet as Augustine wisely noted, “Our hearts are restless until they rest in Thee, O Lord.” It’s humbling to realize that God designed this need to compel us toward His love. He created us with a thirst for communion with Him. But that desire often gets confused by life’s struggles and disappointments, especially when we rely solely upon others to satisfy it. Confusion, frustration, and disappointment remain constant in the midst of romances and friendships that come and go.
I don't feel I have a lot of painful past relationships that I need to work through, but I could relate to this yearning aspect and the thought that "if only I could do this, I would be satisfied." Truly I know that's not what satisfies people, but isn't it crazy how we know this on some level yet keep hoping for more on the off chance that this one last thing, relationship or experience truly will be the key to satisfying our souls?
Does anyone else ever long for things or am I the only one? Do you thirst for more or are you satisfied?